same yourself; such shouting & hallowing I never heard before & I think I try to avoid ever hearing again; do you remember Crawford a Methodist preacher that used to live up near Nevada? he was there, we went early in the morning they had lovefeast & a social meeting, relating their experience &c he got up & talked quite a while, & for all I had heard so much to prejudice me against him, I was quite interested in what he said, one reason I suppose was that he had been in the army for a year & a half & had a good deal to say about that, I must admit that "blue coat" anywhere attracts my attention, but I always remember what you once said in one of your letters that not every one that wore a blue coat was worthy of the respect that was due a true soldier; in the morning after the first sermon just as we were about to start home, I saw Billy Buttler I went to him & shook hands with him & his wife, I tell what my feelings were when I first spoke to him, I was so glad to see him, although you know I had but a very slight acquaintance with, & it was with difficulty that I kept back the tears, I could hardly keep from enveing his wife the society of her husband when mine was far away in the South, every hour exposed to the aim of the rebel, or to death by sickness; & then at evening meeting I saw them again, he with his army overcoat on, with their babe in his arms & tears would come; was it right to feel so?  will you love me less for indulging such feelings O! I miss you everywhere, in all my joys & sorrows; may the day soon come, not only on our account but for thousands of other hearts that are left desolate, when there will be no cause for husbands, fathers & sons to leave their homes & peaceful pursuits to meet their brothers in deadly strife, but I sometimes
